Voices

By Bud Koenemund

The voices are always louder at night;
When I’m alone; vulnerable to their
Influence; criticism which ignites
Self-doubt and –hatred; heightening despair.
Too oft’, these condemnations seem substance:
“You’re not worth affection.” “Who could love a beast?”
“She’s out of your league.” “You have no chance!”
“Why try?” “Just give up, and accept defeat.”
The enemies inside grow insistent –
A treason battering weak defenses –
Overwhelming what little resistance
I can offer to protect my senses.
   How does one combat a mind seditious;
   Obscuring reason with thoughts malicious?

Drought

For "Her."

If it be thy rain which nourishes love,

I find myself in drought; lacking even

A cloud to bring hope of relief above

The parched landscape of my heart. O, heaven;

Feed this withering affection that it

May flower anew, growing stronger by

Showers of passion. I beg the spirits:

Make us, like lightning and thunder, enskied.

Fear not I may drown within thy torrent;

Though supposed weak, my roots go deeper

Than I can exhibit in this warrant;

But, blooms neglected don't last forever.

   Unleash thy storms to quench this wicked thirst,

   And in my garden of love live immersed.