The Only Way I Know How

Heart of Darkness

For "Her."

How am I to bear this heart of darkness;

Rejection gnawing deep within my soul,

Like a malignant cancer, relentless

As time itself? What more shall be life's toll?

Must I live on, and endure further pain

For a sin grievous as falling in love?

'Tis sure affection is forever stained;

Cloaked by madness, and the frustration of

Questions I fear answerless – only vain

Queries, worth little more than breath exhaled.

I pray some remedy as mem'ry wanes,

Though, 'til that day, my humor remains veiled.

   No words can free a passion self-exiled,

   Nor, wash it clean once broken and defiled.